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Dear Diary,

Today is my 18th birthday. I made the mistake of having hope. And thinking that my wish would come true. I should have known better than to have such unrealistic dreams.

I didn’t find a mate. I guess that was better than having one and then feeling the pain of getting rejected. Still, it would have been nice knowing the Goddess made someone for me.

I hadn’t even considered having a partner. And I don’t spend enough time with the clan to even know anyone outside the school and clan leader. If I had a partner in the clan, then I hadn’t met him. And I didn’t pay attention enough to know when I would mature to find one. And I definitely am not asking Mom about it. I don’t want to get her hopes up.

On the bright side, Alpha Black came by with the Luna. It was was nice to see him, but I was a bit disappointed Dev didn’t come. I also felt sad that I had to deliver the bad news to him that I didn’t gain a wolf. It was the first time I had to say it out loud, and it made it that much more real.

Saying it out loud made my heart ache. And I used the excuse of having to pack as the reason to leave my so called birthday party.

The day was hard enough. And the disappointment was too much. I really should have known better. Everyone told me all my life. I should have known. I should have listened, instead of believing they were just baseless words meant to hurt me. They were warnings. The Goddess doesn’t grant wolves or mates to hybrids. We were never meant to be.

In the end, they were right…

MJ. L