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Dear Diary,

I don’t know what to do. That Jordan kid sees right through me somehow. He saw through my masking potion, my mark and my lies. I tried my best to pretend to be human, but then he went and showed me his wolf.

As if that wasn’t enough, Gaia took over my body and I had to sit in the background and watch helplessly as Jordan submitted to us. Except it wasn’t Jordan, it was his wolf that Gaia was talking to. There are so many things I don’t understand.

Like why would he pledge his allegiance to me? And why did Gaia ask him to? Or, did she demand him to?

I would know if she hadn’t blocked me out of the conversation. I couldn’t hear anything. All I know was that a bond was created between us. A bond I didn’t ask for. When his wolf, who I did get to hear was named Milo, retreated, Jordan came to the surface and talked to Gaia. Again, I couldn’t hear what she was telling him, but I could see on Jordan’s face that he was horrified. But apparently that didn’t matter because he completed the bond. I felt it. But I didn’t understand it.

Gaia didn’t tell me anything. But she made me g to James. Of course, she told his wolf, Onyx, who then told James. She didn’t even allow me to break it to him myself. Now James is angry with me. Rightfully so, I guess. But Gaia still won’t tell me anything.

Oh, and before the whole ‘bonding with a complete stranger who I only met twice’ thing, Jordan also told me I have an attachment. I don’t even know what that is. And I don’t really think I want to know. All I want is for James to talk to me, but he’s giving me the silent treatment.

All of this was Gaia’s fault…. Well not all of it, but the biggest things are. She forged the bond with Jordan. She told Onyx. And She blocked me out from even understanding why she did it. I couldn’t even explain to James why we bonded with another man. Do you know how bad that made me look and feel? And now, James won’t talk to me.

I can’t trust Gaia anymore. And if I want to save my relationship with James, I need to find a way to break this bond. Oh, and I still need to pass my finals.

At this point, I’d rather deal with bullies. At least I knew what to expect from. I could hide from them, or beat them up, and still pass all my classes. But thinking about James, this bond with Jordan and Gaia’s betrayal, I don’t know if I even have the mental compacity to study.

Send help.

~MJ.L </3