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Dear Diary,

It’s been a while.

Maybe that’s an understatement, but so much has happened that it feels like a lifetime since my last entry. I don’t think I can even fully accept what I’ve learned yet. Or understand it. And I don’t even know how to feel about it all.

A lot of good, and a lot of bad has happened, and I don’t know where to start. I guess I’ll go in the order of events the best I can.

After my last entry, I couldn’t stop thinking about the prophecy, so I went home to talk to Alpha Black about it. He said he didn’t know if I was the hybrid from the prophecy, but either way, he didn’t believe in senseless killing, so he placed me under his protection. For some reason that made me angry, because his protection didn’t stop people from trying to kill me every day. And for some odd reason, all I could do was cry. And I cried until I fell asleep in his arms.

I woke up in James’s room and we made up. But the morning after, when I should have returned to school, I went into a frenzy. I hurt James, and I almost killed his best friend Jacob. Mom had no choice but to enchant me.

Dad called the school and told them I was taking a leave. I don’t know how it all was going to work, because I I was already in the middle of the semester, but I guess I’ll figure that out later.

Anyway, I was upset and overwhelmed by everything, so I went on a run to clear my head. That’s when I stumbled upon a portal to the Moon Goddess’s realm? I don’t know how else to explain it, but I’m pretty sure that was accurate. I met both the Moon Goddess, Selene, and the Goddess of the Earth, Gaia.

As it turns out, Gaia the Goddess is also my wolf. Well, a part of her. She shared a fraction of herself to serve as my wolf and because of that, I also have access to some of her power… allegedly. But I haven’t gained them yet.

Selene blessed me. And she told me the Mother Vampire will too. The Mother Vampire, Victoria, why were we never taught about her in school? It’s always about the Father Vampire who isn’t even a God. But he is the King, so I guess it makes sense to have his history in the books.

I didn’t get much from them other than confirmation that I am indeed, the hybrid from the prophecy. Selene said I have a choice to either help the High Priestess, Vasilia, or not. Something told me the choice was already made on my behalf.

When I got back home, Mom told me that I was maturing at an accelerating rate for a vampire. 100 years old is when I should ideally reach full maturity. According to Mom – and I know this is true because they warned us about it in school – when a vampire gets closer to maturity, they get frenzied. Typically, they go into isolation during this time until they are able to control themselves. That can take years, usually three or more, and I don’t have that kind of time. The fastest anyone ever completed isolation was a year, and that was done by Mom. I had 7 months.

I’m going to need all the luck I can get.

XOXO

~MJ.L

PS.

I forgot to mention that I did meet Stella. I bailed on our Saturday meeting because I went into a frenzy, but when I went back to school to pack all my things, Jordan brought her, and I filled them in on everything.