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Dear Diary,
Yesterday I was so upset about being grounded that I forgot to tell you about what else happened after the party. Before my parents found out about all the secrets I’d been keeping from them- including the Forbidden Woods- I went with them to the scene to find out what happened and I overheard some things.
Dev found his mate. And it was his best friends girlfriend. And then they got into a fight over her. I acted like I didn’t care, but, when I heard he found his mate, I was a little sad. It was like something inside me broke. Maybe it was the little hope that it could have been me instead?
Over the years I thought I convinced myself that I didn’t like him. That he meant nothing to me. I actually believed it. Until now. If there was anything holding me back from leaving is place, it would have been him. Of course, I’d have made it hard, as if I truly had to be convinced. But the truth is, deep down, I always clung to the hope that he was the one meant for me. The one who would care about my mixed genes.
Instead, he was mated to the Gamma’s daughter. His best friend’s girlfriend of three years. That sounds messy. And something I don’t want to be apart of. Still, my heart ached for him. And I could never let anyone know.
I cried myself to sleep last night. Blaming my grounding as the reason. the truth is, I don’t know if I was crying because of him, or because I was grounded.
MJ. L </3
P.S.
I also overheard something that caught my attention. One of the guards said that students saw a dark shadowy figure looming around the Gamma’s daughter right before the bomb went off. It reminded me of what I saw in the willow. Maybe it wasn’t an actual person I saw, maybe it was a shadow figure. Like a ghost.
I don’t believe in ghosts. But I know dark witches can use some insane magic. Maybe it was something related. Or maybe we all hallucinated it. But one thing I know for sue is that I won’t tell my parents about it. It’ll just add more fuel to the fire. And I might get in even more trouble. So I think I’ll keep it to myself for now.